These are my conversations. Processing of emotion and action. I utilize abstract painting to facilitate a dialogue of my own mental processes, to vent my emotive responses, to analyze the disjuncted course of thought/feeling. Using the mechanism of both control and the loss of it, through chaotic colour, shape, and movement mirroring that of my own internal battles with emotional regulation, pain, and feelings towards socio-political goings on in the world.
Navigating as a queer femme with an endocrine disorder; misdiagnosed and mocked by medical professionals leading to years of untreated physical disorders; navigating the difficulties of parenthood (of an afab child); and emotionally, physically, and financially abused and recently turned to sex work to help with this situation. I turned back to painting as a way to cope; to not travel back to the route of alcohol and drug dependency, to communicate the best way I can to others fighting across existence for recognition, for rights. All of us have different experiences and ways in which we react to them, but I feel art is a universal language which I hope I can express myself more constructively and accessibly.
The photography I take is mainly an attempt to capture a city’s collective version of that communication and identity, through both intentional graffiti as well as ‘natural’ urban decay.
My work is often perceived as violent – heavy, thick brush strokes and drips, splashes and sprays and scratching, all in layers upon layers. My process was born from lack of resources, utilizing and reusing what materials and tools are available to me: paint scrapers, showers, cling film, my hands… I continue to expand and experiment with various tools and mediums building on both my resources and experiences.