I reached a point where physically and psychologically I was not real in any way. I would check in the mirror for evidence I existed and my first drawing was a self portrait. I realised many years after I started drawing, that I was drawing in order to get safely from one moment to the next. I wasted a lot of time feeling I needed to justify what I was doing. I am not a trained artist. I needed to create a mirror for my experience. I do not have the mental capacity to create a conventional narrative, though I cannot give up being ambitious for this. The works are more like keyframes in a film where the beginning remains a mystery and the end will never be known.