My surreal drawings are bodily, self-portraits developed by writing autobiographical poetry. This therapeutic process involves drawing in line, to peel back the layers of the self by mindfully removing excess marks with an eraser. The carnivalesque drawings that emerge in mixed media and collage, depict the depersonalisation of problematic psychological experiences. The morphology I render demonstrates a range of emotions such as joy, despair and sadness. The characters or alter egos I depict are performative. I act out the character or alter ego by making the drawing. My, drawings are a transformation of psychic pain, which I imagine to be written on the body.
I employ a range of tactics to extract and engage with my personal iconography. I research écriture féminine, for example, closely reading texts by Cixous. I am inspired by the femininity of the therapeutic writing of Anais Nin and the poetry of Medbh McGuckian and Margaret Atwood.
In order to reveal my unconscious, I change the scale of my drawings from intricate detail to palatial performance drawings. I move around the space in these performances to develop drawings into environments. The dreamy drawings are often monochrome as that is how I visualise my inner world. However, when I do utilise colour my mood inspires me. I select blues for a calm and spiritual outlook or for a feeling of ecstasy or agitation, involving the body, I draw in reds and umbers. My cathartic drawings are a way of living with chronic mental health issues and the process is part of my wellbeing.