For years people had recommended painting to help with my mental health and i always dismissed that with “painting aint gunna help me”, then i saw a video on youtube of a women painting and for what ever reason i very quickly become interested in trying to paint.
So for my 22nd birthday i asked my mum for some art supplies and i got to painting, at first i had no clue what i was doing and i overthought it so it became more of a chore than something fun i could do, so i took a step back, left it for a few weeks and started thinking about how people had told me it would help. So i picked it back up and put my headphones on and while painting i drifted in to weird headspace where nothing around me was there and the only thing i could think or feel was this painting in front of me, when i paint all my problems, worries and pain disappear and i can finally focus on one thing. I enjoy planning paintings but mostly i sit down, headphones on and just start. Just pick up a brush and see what happens naturally and whatever i’m feeling in that time, what ever i’m anxious about, what ever i’m worried about manifests its self on the canvas without me realising it and for a few hours my brain is turned off and its the most relaxing feeling ever.
I found painting was a great and healthy way for me to escape for a few hours while also creating something and having a sense of achievement.
I can be inspired but the smallest things and grow that idea into something bigger and plan a painting but i’m mainly inspired and driven by my feelings and emotions, if i’m happy a fun, colourful, loose painting will be created, if i’m depressed a dark, sharp edged painting will be created.
I never want to push a feeling through my art, i always hope someone can look and get there own meaning. I like the idea of showing a painting that means something for me and everyone who see’s it has a different feeling and meaning from it.